People who have belonged to some kind of religious or spiritual belief in their lifetime should recall and verify in detail their motive for why they joined the group, and reflect thoroughly in their hearts until they understand why seeking outer powers is wrong.
Even for those who have not participated in any religious or spiritual practice during their current lifetime, we have all without a doubt sought such existences such as God, Buddha, or power from sources that can't be seen. People who are committed to worshipping their ancestors, fortune-telling or charm, or interested in the powers of the universe, or attracted to things such as aura, charisma, yoga, or being able to see or sense spirits, are with certainty completely absorbed in their desire to gain outer powers. It is also the same for people who follow their ancestry to find their origin.
In addition to these, I believe that the energy of reliance upon outer powers extends even into every area of our daily lives. I think I can even say that there is not a single individual who doesn't practice reliance on outer powers. It is not only praying and worshiping that is reliance upon outer powers, but also people who live for money are also being controlled by the power of wanting money.
It is through meditation that you come to feel the kind of world that your heart is filled with. However, it is very dangerous to do this kind of meditation carelessly. As with anything, it is important to follow steps, order, and directions. It will be impossible for you to ever understand why it is wrong to rely on outer powers if you do not believe, or cannot believe, that you, yourself, are the warmth that you seek. It is not possible for you to understand without first learning this. So, even if you are able to learn of your accumulated negative energy of relying upon outer power though your physical body, you will only become controlled by that energy. You will end up continuing to repeat the same mistake.
Conversely, if you are able to truly feel the warmth of your mother in your heart, you will be overcome with the feeling of wanting to apologize to your true Self, "I am so sorry. I am so sorry, I have been making mistakes." The effort of realizing and reflecting on your mistake alone will create enough energy and strength in your heart to diminish the negative energy you have accumulated and grown inside of you in your desire to seek outer powers. What does it mean that you are still controlled by your own energy of relying on outer powers, and that it can even overpower your mother's warmth?
For this reason, it is critical that you closely examine the true state of the warmth you have felt to verify its authenticity. In any case, you will not be able to reflect on your reliance on outer powers until you can meditate with your thoughts toward your mother and feel your mother's warmth. I want you to seriously understand that no matter how much regret you feel for having sought and relied on outer powers, if you have no knowledge of your mother's warmth, it will never connect to true reflection. It is that difficult and challenging.
I have come to using the phrase "risking one's life" in reference to reflecting on one's outer sources of power. To explain simply, if it were easy to reflect upon one's reliance on outer powers and to set oneself free from that energy, there would have been no need to have spent the past twenty years doing these seminars. It is because it is so difficult that it is worth doing. It's because of its difficulty that you feel joy when you realize, even a little, your own mistake.
Your reliance upon outer powers is rooted very deeply inside your heart. When you feel joy about realizing your reliance on outer powers, you won't just simply end in joy. It would be great if you could just conclude with feeling joy, but your energy of reliance upon outer powers will pull you right back. As soon as you feel joy, your next feeling becomes, "Look at me! Look at how I am feeling joyful." That joyous feeling immediately changes to energy of vanity—that is how severely we are controlled by our own energy of relying on outer powers.
However, even that fact is still joyous. It is joyous just to have come to realize within this current lifetime that you are completely controlled by your own energy. Are you able to feel this way from your heart? Are you able to believe that deep inside your heart there exists a part of you that is trying to face your own reality without ever abandoning, discarding, or giving up on your Self, no matter how far the path? Getting to that feeling is what reflecting on your reliance upon outer powers is. This is why having your mother's warmth is essential for reflecting on your reliance of outer powers.
Your mother's warmth continues to support and encourage your heart; at times gently, other times strictly, as you nearly fail or give up numerous times to reflect on your reliance on outer powers. It is only in mother's warmth that you can unite the part of you that turned your back on the warmth with the part of you that is trying to return to the warmth. Once you really feel the world of warmth, and the warmth within you, you will clearly understand just how small the world of reliance on outer powers is. You will fully know how foolish you have been to think that such a small existence was so large and great. This is your foolishness.
Have you ever sensed that you have rotted inside yourself, all the way down to the core? Have you heard in your heart the message from your true Self shouting out to you, "I have turned my back on myself!" Reflection on your reliance on outer powers is to let everything come tumbling down. It requires that you to let go of everything you've been holding onto. Relying on outer powers never had anything good. You who turned your back on your true Self never found salvation. We are only filled with an overflowing gratitude and thankfulness for even just having been born into our physical bodies in this present time and be informed of the condition of our true Selves. Even so, the heart that wants to rely upon outer powers responds violently.
"Save me!"
"Do something for me."
"Taike, how can you abandon us?"
"Why won't you acknowledge me?"
These thoughts and feelings will likely come from you one after another. Are you ready to face the reality that you had turned your back on yourself and have been running from yourself from darkness to darkness? Your reliance upon outer powers is rooted very deeply in you.
In order to strongly understand this, you have your future lives (reincarnation) ahead of you. Naturally, you are the one who has prepared these opportunities for yourself. You have decided for yourself that you will reflect well on your own reliance on outer powers through the cycles of lives that you are preparing for yourself. Are you aware that you have such strong desire in your heart to reflect on your outer powers?
If you begin to feel even a little of mother's warmth in your heart, begin to realize that you had turned your back on that warmth and start to realize in your heart the path toward outer powers and the energy you had sought, you will then start to realize how foolish you had been. Although you will begin to understand, you will still at first waver and pull yourself in two directions.
You threaten yourself, "Don't turn your heart toward Taike. If you turn your heart toward Taike, I will kill you. To hell with the warmth! What warmth? Who brought you your happiness? Do you really think that something like warmth could make you happy? You came begging for me to grant you power. So you're going to betray me now?" If you were to put the feelings into words, this is what your feelings would threaten.
Or, on other hand, you may start to think higher of yourself than others. "You have an important mission. You have a duty in this world. The world that you are feeling in your heart is real. The time will come when you must spread what is in your heart to every one around you. When that time comes, waste no time to help each and every person. There will be people who will be saved because of you." Even if these messages in your heart start with, "I am Tomekichi Taike." If these are the thoughts coming into your heart, then there is a problem.
How will you be able to tell whether the message or thought is truthful or not? There will always be one part of the message that seems strange. It may all make sense, but something will seem very odd. First of all, no one has such a thing as an important life mission. And if you misunderstand the meaning of helping or saving people, it will create the terrible, rotten, and forever bound relationship between spiritual leader and follower. Generally speaking, everyone thinks of helping and saving people as a beautiful thing. People view the act of helping someone in need as something beautiful. There is no problem in people saving people's lives or helping someone currently in need, but it's a very different case when it comes to people wanting to save people's souls or guide people's hearts.
Perhaps because people have existed in the energy of reliance on outer power for such a long time, they are unable to understand the very basic reasons of why it is wrong to save people's souls or to guide people's hearts. We are not aware of the state that we are presently in. We are unable to see that we are being controlled by our own energy; that we completely exist as an authority and follower, a separate and discriminating existence. We are not aware of the state that we are presently in. We don't see that we live in a society full of segregation and discrimination because of manipulation by our ego. You are the one whose heart is dark, in pain, and in need of someone to save it. What does it mean for you to ignore and leave yourself like that and to go help to save and guide other people's heart?
I believe that everyone who came to these seminars during this lifetime, as well as those who are interested in books such as these, are likely to have been individuals who, in their past lives, listened to the voice of God, were considered psychic channelers, or were individuals who as spiritual leaders sought to save people's souls and guide their hearts. That is why they may feel that for some reason they are strongly attracted to the seminars, or strongly pursue attending them with the feeling that this must be it, this must be what they were searching for. Just because you have attended seminars frequently, it doesn't mean you are studying well.
I have already stated this before but the key is your intention or motive for attending the seminars. Your motive turns out to be your heart's habitual tendencies, the hurdle that hinders you from your true Self. When you reflect on your motive, you will clearly come to see the hurdle in your heart that you have worked to correct. It may appear to be dedication for someone to prioritize the seminars over everything else in their life, but this is just an appearance. You cannot define whether you are truly on the right path (the path toward truth) based on this. In any case, I think there are many people among those who attended the seminars, as well as people who read various books of this sort who, although far from being psychic channelers, or spiritual leaders in this lifetime and environment, likely committed such terrible crimes in their past lives. And because of this, they are likely already experienced in having been at the pit of hell.
Not to mention, meeting me, Taike, is very significant. You may misunderstand me if I express it in this way, but once you become sensitive to vibration in the true sense, you will understand the meaning of what I am saying quite well. And then, you will be able to correctly feel and understand my existence.
I sense that all of you are consciousnesses that have come desperately crawling out from the bottom of hell. I am sure there are many people who have not realized this yet, but this is what I feel. I recognize Kayo Shiokawa as one who realized this about herself, and with a strong commitment to herself, charged straight forward on her path. I am not saying to do exactly as she did; people have their own individual processes. However, it is important to make the best use of your opportunities. These opportunities do not come often. When the opportunity arrives, take it. And once you have committed to it, do not turn back. Please find and confirm this feeling in your heart through your continued reflection on your reliance on outer powers.
Reflecting on your reliance on outer powers is a joy. Through your reflection, please meet your foolish self that believes you are being productive, and yet is getting nowhere. It may not be easy to rid your thoughts of being adored or worshipped as a religious or spiritual leader through just a little reflection, but please continue to work on this for the rest of your life.
The same goes for the follower as well. Although their stance may differ from the leader as they pray, "Save me, help me, do something. Please give the power," the world in which both a leader and follower turn to is the same. They've fallen into a trap of choosing to share the same destiny. If the religious or spiritual leader sinks into a world of darkness, the followers will also be trapped in the same darkness. And so, although you may turn your heart toward me and call "Tomekichi Taike, Teacher Taike," I will never respond. You must first come out of the darkness, one step, even a half step at a time.