I hear a message: "Feel the joy that resides within your heart."
The joy and warmth within my heart—could that truly be who I am?
I was in anguish—deep, overwhelming anguish.
I have been told that I had sealed my heart away, closed off tightly, hardened completely.
And yet, I also receive the message that there is, even within me, a true joy and warmth, an open world waiting to be discovered.
Are you really speaking of Himiko's heart?
I am deeply, deeply grateful.
Now, little by little, I am beginning to feel in my heart that I can come to believe this joy and warmth are truly who I am.
Indeed, I have been reborn time and again, through countless lifetimes.
But never once did I convey anything to anyone.
No one ever taught me to turn my heart toward the mother within me.
No one ever told me this.
And so, I was simply born, then died, born, then died—
shut away in my own small, narrow inner world.
Finally, I have been told:
"Open what is within you. Within you lies infinite joy and warmth."
So, can I tell myself that this joy and warmth are me?
Yes, that is right.
You must tell yourself that the joy and warmth that surely exist within you are your true self.
That is what I am being told.
Himiko—Himiko.
There is still so much within you that must be spoken.
Please, gaze deeply within yourself and face the pain that lies there.
The joy and warmth within you, the love of your mother, they are most certainly there.
However, unless you speak from your heart—unless you yourself begin to voice your own heart—
that joy, that warmth, and even the love of your mother will remain small and fragile.
Please, dismantle the world of gods you have built within your heart.
Break it down from within.
To live in ignorance was simply to accumulate and spread darkness, again and again.
When I felt Himiko's life—felt Himiko herself in my heart—I knew this to be true.
No matter what I tried to convey, no matter how much I sought gods and called out for divine favor,
as long as I remained unaware of my true self—of Taike Tomekichi, of Albert—
my inner world remained nothing but pitch darkness.
Clinging tightly to the self, shutting myself into a narrow world—
that is the state of the human being.
To liberate myself from that state—
I came to understand in my heart how truly difficult that is.
And now, precisely because I live in this time,
because I have taken on a physical body,
I am able to feel within my heart the vibration of Taike Tomekichi, of Albert.
This opportunity—
I can only receive it with deep, sincere gratitude: "Thank you, thank you."
By aligning the needle of my heart correctly,
I came to realize that even the tightly bound heart of Himiko could be reached.
What a tremendous energy—what power.
I can truly feel the reality of love's energy and power reaching the heart of Himiko.
I can now convey this message calmly and steadily, because I hold a strong, unwavering desire—
a desire to return together.
We have all made mistakes.
We simply existed in ignorance.
But now that the truth of the universe is becoming clear through this physical form,
I will share this with the many consciousnesses who lie buried deep in the depths of hell.
The act of sharing fills my heart with joy.
To speak calmly, steadily—this is a testament to the strength of the faith I have,
the faith that we are within Taike Tomekichi, within Albert.
To deepen that faith is my joy.
To feel the consciousnesses that existed in agony, in deep, dark blackness—
that too is joy.
There is nothing else in my heart.
Only this: to speak, to expand,
to let flow the energy of joy that is love within myself.
That is all.
And in the time I have left,
I will simply continue to do just that.