"Himiko – From Sorrow to Awakening"

16. Meditating on the Himiko Within Me


Finally—at last—
a sense of peace is beginning to return to me.
It was there all along, within my heart.
Ah, I have been seeking this peace.
Mother... Mother...
There was a part of me that simply wanted to call out to her.

When I was a child,
I called out, "Mother," with such innocence.
And yet somehow, at some point,
I lost the ability to call her by that name.

I asked myself,
"Did you really think you were that great?"
Yes—you believed you were great.
You were the one who received divine words from God.
That belief echoed from deep within me.
What foolishness it was.

I cast myself down into the darkness,
into the deepest pitch-black void.
But now, finally,
in this quiet and boundless space,
I am able to turn toward myself.

I feel sorry.
Truly sorry.
How foolish it was to live without knowing myself.

Himiko—
Yes, your heart can expand even further.
There is a much broader world within you.
You said you felt peace—
but that peace still exists in such a small world.
You dwell in a far greater space than that.
That is who you are.

We are now learning about the world of love.
Please turn your heart toward "Love."
Call out: Tomekichi Taike, Albert, Mother.
Say them with your heart—Love,
Tomekichi Taike, Albert, and Mother.

There was nothing—
truly nothing—in me.
I see now how fixated I was on the name "Himiko."
But in this vast, vast space,
I now realize—I was always here.
I simply existed—expanding, quietly,
gently,
into a soft, endless space.