"Himiko – From Sorrow to Awakening"

21. Himiko, Speak from Your Heart


Yes, thank you for turning your thoughts toward me.
Yes, I have been told that we can return together. Ah, thank you.
I am thinking of my mother. I am calling out to my mother.
Ah, I now feel just how long—how incredibly long—I have locked myself away.
As I call to my mother, I feel my heart begin to open and expand.
Yes, thank you. Thank you.

You have shared joy with me. You have shared warmth with me.
Within this joy and warmth, I will continue to face myself.
Mother, I have done so many, so many things in error.
Ah, it was because I did not know myself.
Now, I am looking into the depths of my own heart.
And it brings me joy to be able to quietly and steadily reflect within.

"Himiko, speak,"—this thought was directed toward me.
I am happy. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you so much.
Here, within this space, I can face myself.
I can call to my mother.
I am filled with happiness.
Thank you. Thank you.

Himiko, have you come to understand in your heart the true nature of the god you once believed in?
Have you truly felt, in your heart, that it was darkness, pure darkness?
Have you come to feel, in your heart, the gravity of your mistakes—what those mistakes truly were?

To the extent that you have come to know, deep within, how wrong you were, the hearts of those connected to you will also begin to change.
Please, please continue to sit quietly and feel deeply into your heart.

I was made to feel the very bottom of my heart—the place where I longed to be revered as a god.
Thank you for showing me the depth of my error.
I will draw close to that truth.
I will bring my heart into alignment with that truth.
Thank you. Thank you.