F's Reflection –1
I believe. How about you? Do you believe in me? Can you entrust everything?
This was the thought that came to me during my morning meditation. I felt it was the gentle heart within me speaking to the "me" that thinks it is the physical self.
What do you think about in your daily life? Do you live with joy? Are you using this learning as a shield to place yourself above others? Each person has their own way of learning, their own path to return to God. Everyone is doing their best. The thought of "I wish they would do this" is only a source of suffering. All that truly matters is how much you yourself can spend each day with a joyful heart.
When you feel the urge to convey something—to encourage someone to turn their heart toward this learning—there is often a hidden trace of blaming that person within that thought. That is not the way. A gentle heart communicates naturally when you yourself are simply living in joy, without special worry or agitation. We are all children of God. Any desire to somehow change things through the physical self is arrogance. Perhaps the time you are given now is necessary for you to realize this. Cherish the time given to you in the physical self, for only through having the physical can certain thoughts become visible. And when you live this way, you will truly feel in your heart that you exist even without the physical self.
Because my heart has been based on the physical, I have looked down on and blamed others, thinking many times, "If only everyone would engage in this learning, I wouldn't have to suffer so much or endure such a painful heart." Yet no matter what others did, the suffering was in my own heart. The only way forward was to change my own thoughts. Still, I kept thinking that suffering came from outside.
It is not only my father who lives side by side with death. He shows me that this is reality. Seeing my father's physical self, I think closely about my own way of living and of dying. What I have put out, I must settle myself—that is the natural flow.
To live is painful, and to die is frightening. My heart has been entirely caught in this flow. When will I settle it? When will I change that flow? This is my task from now on. In that place there is no one else—only myself.
Awaken, and know. Awaken to the truth that the real you is consciousness. The next three hundred years are the time you give to yourself, so that you may understand this in your own heart. Everything is love. Whatever happens comes to awaken you to the truth. Turn your heart around swiftly, and become someone who can communicate this from your own heart. I am waiting. I have always been waiting in your heart. I am the Taike Tomekichi within you, the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike.
F's Reflection – 2
This morning during meditation, I received the message: "Do not be afraid—let your thoughts come forth."
Yes, I realized, I have always swallowed my own thoughts. That is why I have suffered.
My greatest pain has been my inability to honestly bring my thoughts to the surface, to stop covering myself with appearances. I have been competitive, self-centered, and convinced that no one could be as wonderful as I am. I have lived always expressing that belief, unwilling to be overtaken or to yield to anyone, clinging fiercely to the thought, "Only for me, only for me." This heart of mine has been steeped in darkness. And my physical self knew all too well that if I ever voiced those feelings directly, it would certainly cause trouble with those around me. Yet my heart has always revealed them, and I have suffered in the gap between those inner feelings and the "signboard" of my physical self.
I hated those dark thoughts. I refused to accept them as part of myself, and so I put on an indifferent face and kept the lid firmly shut. That is why I suffered.
Is your physical self really so magnificent? Why does the physical self exist? Know that it exists so you can see just how far your heart has strayed from God. Many versions of you have been appealing to you all along—pleading for you to recognize their presence. Please, turn your heart toward Taike Tomekichi, and gently accept those thoughts.
F's Reflection – 3
Now is the time of awakening—the time to awaken. It is a joy to look into our hearts together. Let us return to God together. You and I, all of us, are one. The physical self is individual, but our hearts are connected. We have continued to use hearts filled with suffering, with impurity, and greatly out of alignment with God.
Through my father's physical self, I am being allowed to learn. I will face squarely the dark thoughts within me. Father, please learn together with me. We have forgotten that we are beings of joy. In the thoughts of the physical self, we have always ended our lives in fear, loneliness, and isolation. But I will trust, in my heart, the Taike Tomekichi within me and the warmth of my mother, and I will reveal in my heart that I was never a lonely or fearful being. Please walk with me.
Thank you to my physical body's cells. You have supported this foolish physical self and lived together with me until now. Because you have been here, I have been able to learn. The physical self is foolish, and I have continued to overuse you. Please give me a little more time. I want to keep looking a little longer—at why I was given this physical body, at what meaning my life has held, and at the many mistakes I have made.
The physical self is precious to me now. Even just a little—just a little—I want to touch the true self before I end this life. I feel as though, in the heart that has repeated so many mistakes, I can finally see a faint light. Until then, please allow me more time.
F's Reflection – 4
It was a seminar truly worthy of marking the beginning of a joyful life. The energy I release is fierce, yet to feel the heart that forgives me for it fills me with nothing but joy. Again and again, I have been given the time to confirm both the rage of the other-power gods who refuse to ever acknowledge Taike Tomekichi, and the heart that still forgives and loves me regardless. I feel deeply how fortunate I am to have been granted such a time, and how profoundly blessed I am simply to be able to gather for these seminars.
I am happy. Thank you.
Mother, thank you. I am happy.
I cursed you, cursed you again and again, cursed and cursed, and killed you, killed you over and over. Please forgive me. Please forgive me, Mother.
Even in the energy of the other-power gods surging toward Taike Tomekichi in phenomena, I can feel your warmth, Mother, and the repentance in my heart. That makes me happy. And so, step by step, to keep walking the path of returning to God is, simply, joy. I realized that the time of phenomena is a time in which I can directly feel I am being forgiven.
No matter how filthy the thoughts hidden in this heart, no matter how rotten it may have become, the true self has always believed in me, loved me, and forgiven me. The time of phenomena is the time to confirm that. I once thought I had long since been abandoned, but instead, I find that I have been watched over all along. That realization is happiness. I had spent my heart's energy hating and discarding the thoughts of darkness, but I came to see that it was precisely those filthy, hopeless, unwanted thoughts that had been crying out with all their might, "Return to God! I want to return to God!"
To confirm in your own heart the vibration flowing from Taike Tomekichi, to know that vibration—this will become an extremely important key from now on. Over the next three hundred years, we will come to know the world of the heart, the true world of consciousness. This is the path we will walk together with me, Taike Tomekichi, and Albert.
In my heart, the next life is already being steadily prepared. Let us walk together, together, along the path of joy. I am waiting—I will go on waiting for your awakening. My heart is nothing but joy, joy, and joy. Please, believe in me, and walk with me. Step by step, walk the sure path—please, walk it with me.
F's Reflection – 5
Taike Tomekichi is consciousness. He is the gentle warmth of my mother that exists within me. That is why he feels so familiar. Trusting in the consciousness of Taike Tomekichi, I take each step toward returning to my true self. In my heart, the energies of countless gods I once clung to in the past still swirl, yet I choose to trust in the heart of Taike Tomekichi and let that thought be revived within my own heart.
"I am consciousness. I am not the physical self."
To gradually let this conviction grow within my heart is my joy. Even with a heart filled to the brim with the physical, in this life I was born to my mother and was able to meet Taike Tomekichi. Mother, I am glad I was born. Thank you for giving me life.
During a phone call, the teacher's pointed words drew out my honest thoughts. And the other-power energies I had once held onto showed me the truth—it was all me. The kindness of the thought that my own self has been conveying to me makes me simply happy to meet so many parts of myself like this, here and now.
Taike Tomekichi only continues to wait. He is the consciousness that keeps communicating the joyful heart with gentle thought. You are me, and I am you. If you truly feel that thought in your heart, there will be nothing to fear.
At the deepest depths of a heart bound and constricted by countless other-power energies lies the true self, buried. I simply trust in you and go on waiting. In this lifetime, the time remaining for my connection with the physical Taike Tomekichi is now very short. But in the world of consciousness, I am together with you. And what you have learned in this life—please carry it into your next life. I will go on waiting, always.
F's Reflection – 6
What is it that is wrong? Feel it in your heart. Not with words, not with your head—feel it with your heart.
My heart is bound tight, unable to move an inch. I am holding my own heart in a firm grip. That is what makes it painful. Because it is painful, I asked myself what I should do. The answer that came back was my mother's reflection: Remember your mother's warmth. Remember your mother's warmth, and accept the painful thoughts you are holding.
Because my heart was so tightly bound, I think I was once able to rouse and push my physical self to persevere. Believing only in the physical self, I lived my own version of life with all my effort. The source of that energy was this bound-up heart. I took pride in it, saw it as something great, and, aligning with the consciousness that swelled such thoughts, I walked straight into the whirlpool of suffering.
It was the energy I had chosen and allowed to grow within my heart—an energy I had sought with a mind based on the physical self. It was the desire to draw out the hidden abilities within me. With that heart, I kept seeking God—God, God, God, please give me strength. I sought God with a heart that wanted my physical self to be exalted. Give me power, give me power,—I sought God with a heart of the physical self, the physical self, the physical self.
The desire to gain power from a physical-based heart is painful, yet I could not stop. Even though I knew it was wrong, I could not stop.
The number 306,000,000 years has been shown. Habits of the heart cannot be corrected so easily. But it is not impossible. As I have always said, repeat reflection and meditation—think of the Taike Tomekichi within you, and turn your heart toward the physical Taike Tomekichi right before you. Direct your heart toward this guidepost. Do it with sincerity, and you will begin to understand in your heart.
We are about to face a great turning point—that is the flow. I simply trust in that divine flow. Soon, we will reach the time when the other-power energies will be uprooted and collapse completely.
F's Reflection – 7
I read the page titled "Move Straight Ahead with the Turning of the Heart." I was arrogant. I still thought the physical self could do it, that I could make it happen through the physical, that I could change through the physical. But the physical self could do nothing—nothing at all. I realized that it would have been enough simply to reflect, to meditate, to participate in phenomena, and to rejoice in whatever I could notice in my own heart. That alone was enough.
Somewhere along the way, I had begun to put unnecessary pressure on myself—thinking, I have to change, I have to transform. I began to feel that unless I noticed something through reflection, meditation, and participation, there was no value in doing them. Without realizing it, I was continuing the same approach I had used for physical-world study. But that was not it. Reflection, meditation, participating in phenomena, and even one-on-one sessions with the teacher—everything was, in truth, only joy.
Through meditation, thinking of the Taike Tomekichi in my heart, thinking of Taike Tomekichi, and trusting only in the joy I felt in that moment—that was all I needed to do. I felt how arrogant my heart had been. Thank you.
F's Reflection – 8
There was a gentle thought in my heart, too.
I turned my heart to the thoughts my mother had when she carried me in her womb. She was simply happy that I would be born. She only wished for me to grow into an honest and good child. Yet I had competed with others, looked down on others, blamed and judged others, and neglected my mother. Even so, my mother still said, "You are a good child," and she gave me life and raised me.
My mother loved and trusted me. She believed in the heart of a child of God. That was the heart of Taike Tomekichi. Even when I looked down on him and could not acknowledge him, Taike Tomekichi accepted me, forgave me, and waited for me. His vibration kept telling me, "You are truly a sincere person. I believe in you." I was both my own favorite and the one I disliked most.
The me who had pushed away and rejected myself again and again—Taike Tomekichi simply waited for me, with a gentle heart, for a very long time. And he still waits.
It was my mother. My mother waited, waited, and went on waiting for me. No matter how many times I betrayed her, she trusted me and kept waiting.
I want to return to my mother's heart. My mother's heart is my true home.
F's Reflection – 9
All-knowing, all-powerful—almighty. It had been a long time since I heard those words. They were words I liked. That was the image I held of Mr. T. I had revered him as a superhuman, comparing him to the physical self. I believed that those who stand before everyone must remain veiled in mystery. Perhaps I did not want Taike Tomekichi to do things like bathe with everyone or eat in the same room. Without realizing it, I may have been thinking this way. When asked if there was something I disliked about him physically, perhaps it was that being an ordinary person wasn't good enough for me, that I wished he were someone with more secrecy surrounding him.
When told to turn my heart toward Mr. T, what I felt was only pain. I also felt frustration that I could not display my full power here, and the thought arose: "Disappear, Taike Tomekichi." And yet, the vibration of Taike Tomekichi was gentle enough to embrace even that thought. I could feel my heart changing. Mother, Mother… Mother accepted even me—accepted the immense energy I was putting out. My heart began to change.
The teacher was simply showing me the difference in vibration. Words were unnecessary. Form was unnecessary. There was a gentleness that could be felt without any forceful explanation. I had been irritated that the teacher did not show me through form. I placed Mr. T far above, and kept looking down on Taike Tomekichi—my true self. I was fixated on the physical aspect of Taike Tomekichi, seeing him only as a physical being.
I was given many opportunities to turn my heart toward Taike Tomekichi. His vibration was the warmth of a mother—it was my mother. By turning my heart toward Taike Tomekichi, I began to loosen my reverence for Mr. T.
F's Reflection – 10
When I close my eyes and think of Taike Tomekichi, a feeling of joy begins to spread within my heart. Joy, joy—and then, Mother, thank you—these thoughts keep coming. Tears well up, and I marvel at how naturally honest I have become. I think, If I could interact with others from this heart, from this feeling, how much lighter my heart would be and how much more enjoyable each day would become.
At present, the seminars continue in such a way that each participant becomes more sensitive to, and able to feel, the vibration of Taike Tomekichi. It may seem hopelessly outdated, but for a long time after I began attending seminars, I remained fixated on the idea of channeling. I always believed that unless my "spirit path" opened, I could not truly understand this learning. Seeing the spirit path as a kind of ability, I longed to acquire it and joined seminars with the thought, How can I open the window of my heart? I reflected with that purpose.
Although I was often urged to check my motives and purpose for attending, I treated that matter lightly, avoiding it because I did not want to face it. Becoming a channeler, I thought, would not only draw people's attention to me, but would also make me more sensitive to the world of consciousness. If I became a channeler, I imagined, I would be able to see my own heart clearly, making reflection smooth, and then I would easily notice my habits of mind and correct them. I kept searching for the most convenient shortcut. With such childish, calculating thoughts, I continued attending seminars for many years.
Seven years have now passed. The other-power energy within me still remains deeply rooted in my heart. I have become a little more sensitive and can now confirm this for myself. When I think of Taike Tomekichi, feelings of joy and gentleness also arise in my heart. I have also come to understand that unless I trust and accept these gentle thoughts, the other-power energy will never leave me.
Becoming sensitive to the world of consciousness was nothing like the easy idea I had imagined. I now realize that I chose to pursue channeling as a way to confirm just how much energy I have been holding. In truth, wanting to be a channeler was for my own sake. I once considered a channeler—someone who receives many streams of consciousness and speaks many words—to be a truly enlightened person. But I now understand that nothing could change unless I changed at the root. Without knowing vibration, without being able to trust vibration, nothing can truly be seen.
It always comes back to the starting point. I want to carefully nurture the thought that arises from my heart: I will trust Taike Tomekichi.
F's Reflection – 11
I have a high opinion of myself. That is why I find it difficult to honestly show my emotions. This has been a source of pain for me. When I felt happy, I should have just cried out, "I'm happy!" But instead of admiring those who express their feelings openly, I looked down on them. I thought controlling one's emotions was good, and I continued to look down on those who acted according to their emotions.
Yet the consciousness within me spoke honestly. Those thoughts were filled with gentleness. The feeling of entrusting myself to Taike Tomekichi was one of deep peace. But I could not bring myself to trust in my own honest feelings. This is what Taike Tomekichi had been telling me all along.
F's Reflection – 12
Always—at all times—I was supported by my true self. I had always been taught that the gentle feeling within me was the real "you." All I needed was to realize that. Nothing complicated was required. Yet I looked down on myself. I kicked my true self away, living with a proud face, declaring myself wonderful, insisting I was not wrong, all the while spitting at myself inside.
It was truly a self-made, self-directed world. I had regarded the world of consciousness as something mysterious and magical, and I had viewed God through the same lens. That is why I had swelled my heart with thoughts of wanting to know, of wanting the ability to sense such things.
To believe in Taike Tomekichi was to believe in myself—the true self. It was enough to believe in the gentle feelings within me, the joyful feelings within me, and the heart that can honestly say, "Mother, thank you."
It was happiness to realize that I am someone who is always loved and always waited for. I will believe only in the gentle feeling within me.
Without haste or strain, just walk your path steadily. Believe in me within your heart, and keep walking.
F's Reflection – 13
I was a consciousness that kept wandering. Seeking God, seeking the truth, I wandered on and on. Even in this lifetime alone, I visited many places—shrines and temples alike. Yet my physical self, with its lighthearted and playful attitude, could not easily connect this to genuine reflection on my dependence on other-power.
But when I saw "A Letter from Me to You," I realized that my heart had been completely turned outward, and that I had been wandering endlessly all along.
I was someone who had been waited for. I was a fortunate being for whom the call, "Come home," had been sounded without end.
And I have another life ahead. In my next life, I will meet Albert, and I will be able to continue this learning. I know this in my heart, and it makes me happy. Taike Tomekichi and Albert were both within my heart. Thank you. It is happiness to be able to carry this forward into the future.
F's Reflection – 14
I had always thought I could do anything on my own. I believed that if I just used my head and my body, I could manage somehow. It was only when I placed myself in a situation where nothing could be done that I finally came to know my own foolishness. I had always looked at everything from above, with a strong sense of "I am the one doing this—me, me." Even in this learning, I approached it with the thought, "I will do it myself. Show me the method so I can succeed." And in doing so, I entirely bypassed self-reconciliation.
I had underestimated Taike Tomekichi. I had taken the world of consciousness lightly. I had treated my own darkness far too casually. This was not simply about looking down on others or putting myself first—it was on a completely different scale:
"I am God. I will rule the entire world. I was born to kill Taike Tomekichi."
When I was allowed to clearly and explicitly voice these dark thoughts aloud, I was, for the first time, able to confirm just how much darkness my heart contained. In phenomena, I put out tremendous energy, yet I had always thought, "I'm still not as bad as that person." I did not want to admit it, but I had to: I carry an immense energy within me. Because I could not accept that, I could not truly connect it to reflection.
When I was told, "Turn your heart to Taike Tomekichi," I said, "I can't turn my heart to him. I can't think of him. I was born, here and now in the physical self, to kill Taike Tomekichi—so can you really forgive someone like me?" The vibration of Taike Tomekichi was nothing but a gentle embrace. I was told, "You are already forgiven." I had been closing my heart. All I needed to do was open it.
I had feared my own darkness, felt I might be crushed beneath it, so my physical self avoided turning my heart toward it. Yet if the darkness is also me, then Taike Tomekichi is the warmth within me as well. The entire world of consciousness was a self-created, self-performed stage. The darkness in my heart is waiting to be released. When one piece comes out, another follows—darkness without end flows from my heart. I now feel in my heart that the darkness born to kill Taike Tomekichi was, in truth, born longing to meet him. That makes me happy. I will learn to turn my heart toward Taike Tomekichi together with my darkness. Thank you.
I had exalted myself—always placing myself first, looking down on everything. Father, Mother, thank you. I was the greatest fool of all. I was a being loved, loved, and forgiven—a happy existence. It is happiness in this life to be able to meet Taike Tomekichi like this. It has been a long 306,000,000-year journey of reincarnations. From here, I will correct my heart and be sure to carry this into my next life. Thank you.
F's Reflection – 15
I had been seeking love. My heart was never fulfilled. No matter how much I sought, my heart remained empty. Everyone, without exception, betrayed me; in the end, they all disappeared from my life. I told myself I would never let that happen again, and I could no longer open my heart. I was lonely—but I could not say I was lonely. There's no way I could be lonely, I insisted, and I worked hard to hide that truth. I kept myself busy only with diverting my heart, doing everything I could to avoid facing it. It was something I absolutely refused to admit: I am not lonely. I could not accept that feeling, nor could I embrace my lonely heart.
Instead, I pressed it down and sought love and power. I believed love was something to be sought and acquired. But it was I myself who was blocking the flow of love.
F's Reflection – 16
Since connecting with this learning, I have come to understand just how deeply I have longed to free myself. And I feel that my meeting with Taike Tomekichi was by no means a coincidence—it was an encounter meant to happen.
It is happiness to be given time in which I can confirm in my own heart what Taike Tomekichi has conveyed to me, and to be allowed to feel it in my heart along with his vibration.
F's Reflection – 17
My heart was filled with desire, desire, desire. Now, I have moments when I can close my eyes and converse with myself—time when I can speak within my own heart. In those moments, when I turn my thoughts inward, I can sometimes feel, even a little, that I am happy. I have wished for so much. But I now think that having time to close my eyes and think of Taike Tomekichi is the greatest happiness of all.
I tried hard to figure out what happiness is, how to attain it, and what it would take for my heart to feel satisfied. I could gain a momentary sense of fulfillment, but soon after came the emptiness and anxiety. My heart was never satisfied; I could not settle it, and I kept wondering why, why? I felt my heart growing rough and withered. But I did not want to show weakness. I did not want to admit to being a complaining, grumbling person. I felt I needed proof that I was living a happy and fulfilling life. It was utterly foolish. Why did I feel the need to keep up such an appearance? I refused to see myself as the same as "those people."
In the time between birth and death, if I could accept—even a little—the self I did not want to see or forgive, then my life would be complete. Even if I had nothing, even if I sought nothing, if I could truly cherish myself from the depths of my heart, that would have been enough.
My heart is unfulfilled. My heart is lonely. I want my heart to be healed. These have been the cries of my heart, continuing from the past until now. When I turn my heart toward Taike Tomekichi, these cries come bursting out all at once. I have kept suppressing and hiding them, but now I can no longer do anything to contain them. In this lifetime, the only path left is to accept them.
F's Reflection – 18
It was unconditional. There was nothing—truly nothing. I was simply forgiven. Every thought, no matter what it was, was accepted. I felt enveloped, embraced. The joy of being accepted was so great, and to be forgiven—without reason or condition—made me simply happy. Entrust your heart to me. I am you, and you are me. In the vibration of Taike Tomekichi, I existed as one who was being kept alive. I felt joy in being able to acknowledge that I had been wrong. I felt joy in telling myself, I have been wrong.
What I wanted was to be recognized—to have the dark thoughts within me acknowledged. I wanted to be accepted. I wanted to hear, I am you, and you are me. I didn't want to be hated and cast aside; I simply wanted to be noticed. I wanted to hear, You too are forgiven, you too are accepted.
I felt the presence of Taike Tomekichi, waiting for me again and again, urging me to turn my heart toward myself and become honest with myself. I felt how warm that patient, ever-waiting heart was, wrapping around me. Time has been given to me—the time to realize the gentle thought I can accept for myself. In times of pain or sadness, I was told, Turn your thoughts to the heart within you. I have been taught, in this very heart, to notice the presence of myself who is always here, supporting me within my own heart.
F's Reflection – 19
My mother has started using a computer. In responding to her questions about how to operate it, I realized that my exchanges with her mirrored exactly the way I use my heart in this learning. My mother was showing me this.
In our phone conversations, my heart came out directly. "If you click here, it will do this." — "It doesn't." Even when I tried to explain step by step, she would jump ahead with only what she wanted to say or what she wanted to know, refusing to listen openly to what I was telling her. I saw myself in her behavior.
In trying to use the computer without reading even a single page of the manual, her presumptuousness—her overbearing attitude—was exactly like the thoughts I have directed toward the teacher in this learning. I realized I had not been open to the orderly guidance I was being given. I had not been listening with an empty heart.
Somewhere inside, I had my own assumptions, hopes, and desires, and I interpreted what the teacher said in a way that prioritized them. Through my mother, I was shown this truth. Thank you. What I needed was to be honest.
F's Reflection – 20
My physical self may not understand, but consciousness knows. The heart—consciousness—was already in the future.
The feeling at that time went beyond warmth or joy. It was not words. With no resistance at all, I could think, "I am consciousness."
"You are not a being of suffering. You are consciousness. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Ah, I am happy, happy, happy."
That is what I was saying. I will trust this heart, this thought, and continue walking forward. Thank you.
F's Reflection – 00
"The energy you have been putting out is immense. The thoughts you direct toward me are extremely painful. I am now showing you, in this way, the energy you have been sending. The thoughts you direct toward me are painful. Realize this. Realize it. Realize your mistakes."
This was the heartfelt plea I felt from Miyake Island. When I was allowed to turn my consciousness toward it, I sensed that the island was telling us: It is painful, but it is also joyful—that is love.
The island was alive. The island was pleading. The island was speaking to us. Yet to me, it still felt like someone else's matter. The island was just an island. I had convinced myself that even if I turned my consciousness toward it, I could not truly understand. But everything around me had been teaching me.
I came to realize how important it is to feel vibration and to direct consciousness. By doing so, the world of consciousness can be experienced in this very heart. I want to keep turning my heart toward the warmth that can be felt beyond the crumbling world of form, and to trust in the vibrational world of Taike Tomekichi.