Turning Consciousness
– Love: The Self Within –


Chapter 9:
Ask yourself



We are all searching for a reason to live.

We are all searching for something we can indulge ourselves in, something that we can trust, something that we can bet our lives on, or something that needs our help. I believe there are people who have not yet found that "something" and are still looking for it.

Then, please ask yourself whether you think those who have been able to find something they can indulge themselves in are happy. Do you think those who are pursuing their dreams are happy? Do you truly think such people's lives are brighter than your own?

On the other hand, there are people who lead their lives under the belief that the efforts they make are made for the sake of their family, company, community, nation, and/or humankind. If you are one of these people, please ask yourself whether making efforts for others is such a great thing.

Yet, there are also people who say they are living for no one else but themselves.

Living for oneself is generally understood as being a selfish thing. However, in this study, to live for oneself means to live for the large number of true selves inside oneself. I believe living for the large number of true selves inside oneself is the most important thing in life, and any life without this being the primary purpose, is a meaningless one. Leading a happy and bright life is impossible without realizing or facing the fact that the primary purpose of life is to live for the large number of true selves inside oneself. I believe the reason people continue to be at a loss of the meaning of life is that they do not know this simple fact.

All kinds of incidents that occur across the globe alert us, trying to let us know that we need to awaken to the real purpose of life. Therefore, although people seem surprised when something unprecedented happens, I say, "There is nothing surprising about unprecedented incidents happening because they are signs of caution directed toward us." We are all trying to let ourselves know that we have gone insane, having forgot the most important purpose of life.

We have suffered countless times over our past lifetimes. However, we never knew why we had to suffer. This lifetime, again, we were born with the hope of becoming happy. However, our wish of "becoming happy" this lifetime is not the same as those of our past lifetimes. Do you truly feel with your heart your own selves' painfully serious wish of "becoming happy" this lifetime?

If you are feeling sad and/or suffering, you are not feeling sad and/or suffering only because something painful happened to you this lifetime; something of that sort had already happened to you in your past lifetimes. The pain you are feeling now is not one that had just recently been inflicted but one that you have been carrying with you over many past lifetimes.

Do you understand what I am saying? This is an important point.

We all experience such feelings as sadness and loneliness. They are feelings experienced by all of us when we come across a situation that triggers such feelings. However, if we do not reflect on our hearts after experiencing such feelings, we will be making the same mistake we made in our past lifetimes. Like being sung in many songs, we say to ourselves, "That's life" or "Things happen in life," giving up learning from such experiences. We follow the example of others and try to convince ourselves that "Time will resolve our issues."

However, I would like to say, "Do not give up learning from your painful experiences, and do not try to convince yourself in such an unnatural way. This is where you need to hang in there for your own sake."

We were born with sad, lonely, suffering, and dark thoughts. Our dark thoughts were already with us from the beginning of this lifetime. The biggest challenge of life is dealing with such dark thoughts.

If one were to just be crushed by pressure and run away from one's issues at hand, crying that he/she feels sad, is suffering, and feels lonely without facing such feelings, he/she should not consider himself/herself as leading his/her life properly. If one allows himself/herself to avoid facing such feelings, he/she would never be able to come to know true joy and happiness.

I am not saying that one should not allow himself/herself to feel sad, suffer, and/or feel lonely. It is alright to feel such feelings and feel completely empty. I am saying that one should not give up one's life and allow himself/herself to continue to feel empty. The most important thing is what one learns from such experiences through reflecting on oneself. You planned your own life yourself and gave yourself your current lifetime so that you can reflect on yourself.

To live is to reflect on oneself, and in order to guide oneself to joy and happiness, one needs to put effort into generating the energy that will allow oneself to do so.

I have been telling myself the following statements: "There must be the power inside myself that will guide me toward converting my dark energies to bright ones. That is the power I will pursue throughout my life." This "power" is what our study of the heart has now come to call "love." We used to be full of the energy of love, or the power of love. To be able to understand that we are extremely happy, we need to realize that, when we are suffering, we are trying to guide ourselves toward awakening the energy of love that has always existed inside us. When we are suffering, the energy of love inside us is telling us that we are happier than ever.