This chapter is a deeply personal reflection on the author's relationship with their mother, serving as a gateway to self-discovery and inner transformation. Although the author's mother was, by all social standards, a decent and responsible parent, the author struggled with an unexplainable aversion toward her—particularly her gaze, which felt oppressive. There were no clear grievances or acts of mistreatment. Yet, the emotional wall between them felt impenetrable.
As the author embarked on a journey of spiritual learning, they were compelled to confront their feelings toward their mother. Through this process, they realized that the issue had never been the mother herself, but rather their own unresolved internal darkness. During seminars, the author released intense emotions—anger, resentment, even words of death—that had been buried deep within. These feelings were not truly directed at the mother, but used her as a trigger to expose the darkness accumulated over lifetimes.
Gradually, the author came to understand that their mother had simply played the role of drawing out these latent energies. What once appeared as hostility was, in truth, an opportunity for healing. The act of being born to this particular mother became an expression of grace, allowing the author to recognize and accept the depth of their own misguided heart.
This realization extended beyond the personal. Observing the increasing breakdown of family ties in society—abuse of children, neglect of aging parents, senseless violence—the author laments a world where even basic human decency is lost. Yet, they point out that these tragedies stem from unresolved inner darkness that people fail to confront. Unless one looks inward, these violent energies will continue to surface uncontrollably.
The author concludes that as we awaken to the true world of consciousness, our physical lives begin to realign with compassion and responsibility. Caring for an aging parent is no longer a burden, but a natural extension of love. This shift cannot be forced from the outside—it arises from within, when we begin to feel the vibration of truth. In a time of moral collapse, returning to the heart and recognizing the preciousness of our connections is the only true path forward.
この章では、自身の母との関係を通じて、自らの内面を深く見つめる学びの過程が語られる。著者は、特に不満があるわけではないのに母が苦手だった。母の目に支配されていると感じ、自分の領域を守ろうと心を閉ざしていたが、それは母の問題ではなく自分自身の内なる課題であったと気づく。
学びを通して、自分の心の奥底にあった激しい感情やエネルギーを母に向けて解放することで、本当の意味で自分を知り、母を受け入れるようになっていく。母への否定的な思いは、神に向けていた他力的な思いと同根であると理解する。最終的に、母親は自分の心の闇を引き出すための存在であり、親子の縁はありがたいものだと受け止めるに至る。
このような学びを通じて、人間関係の根底にある心の問題と向き合うことの大切さ、そしてそれを怠れば現代社会の混乱や暴力的事件につながっていくことが示される。著者は、社会に蔓延する心の闇と向き合いながら、真実の世界に触れることで、人は自然に優しくなると結論づける。