本章は、著者が瞑想や日常生活の中で自らの心を深く見つめ、肉的傲慢や他力依存、恐怖や孤独、愛への渇望などの闇を直視し、それらを受け入れていく過程を綴った記録です。
田池留吉の波動や「お母さん」の温もりに触れ、自らが本来愛され許されている存在であると気付き、心の転回を決意します。チャネリングへの執着や能力欲、自己優越感などの癖に気付き、真の学びは形や力ではなく、やさしい思いを信じることにあると悟っていきます。
ここには、セミナーや日常の出来事を通し、闇とともに歩み、やがて意識としての自分を確信するまでの心の歩みが、告白と感謝の言葉を交えて描かれています。
This chapter shares an honest account of the author's inner journey—watching, meeting, and little by little accepting the shadows within: the pride tied to the physical self, reliance on outside powers, fear, loneliness, and an unfulfilled wish for love. Through meditation and daily experiences, they often sense the gentle warmth of Tomekichi Taike's vibration and the presence of the "Mother" within, and begin to realize they have always been loved and forgiven.
The pull toward channeling, the longing for special abilities, and the feeling of being somehow above others are seen for what they are—distractions from the real learning, which is simply to trust the quiet, tender thoughts in one's own heart. Along the way come moments of painful self-recognition, times of letting hidden energies rise and pass, and a gradual turning toward inner change.
Encounters at seminars and reflections on everyday relationships become turning points. Through them grows the quiet conviction: "I am consciousness, not just this physical self." The chapter is, above all, a gentle testament to walking side by side with one's own darkness, and to the joy of finding the way back to the true self.